Tuesday, January 25, 2011

Update

OK, turns out I was just overthinking things. I'm back at training, and it's great! Yay!

Sunday, January 09, 2011

Happy new year...

So, New Year's resolution for 2011 - to prioritise printing and physically albumising photographs over just making a Facebook album and letting my digital images just sit on my hard drive. Nerdy, huh? But very me.

I go back to work tomorrow. Not dreading it, so that's a good thing. What I am dreading though is returning to roller derby. Having had these 3 weeks off has been really nice. I've kind of soured on derby lately, and wonder if I really want to go back to it. Most of it comes down to the nasty world of personality politics. I don't mind the skating, but I feel quite disillusioned about the way people are relating to each other these days.

A new Executive Committee was voted in last October, and there has been the sense of a very definite regime change. Which is unfortunate, because I quite identified with the old regime, and am not sure I see myself reflected in the New World Order. Plus the last training session of last year ended with me in tears, which is something that has NEVER happened before, and it really left a bad taste in my mouth. But, I've just shelled out $60 for my annual membership to Skate Australia, so I guess I'll be going along once training resumes next Sunday and seeing how it all goes.

I wish I could just embrace it and love it the way so many other people seem to - but I'm so bloody wary and cautious, and as soon as I get the slightest whiff of emotional discomfort I just want to run away. Yet something else I blame on being an only child (lack of experience in dealing with contemporaries) - or maybe I should blame my star sign (Cancerians are famous for retreating into their crab shells when things get uncomfortable!). Anyway, I'll definitely go back, and have my debut bout, and hopefully get drafted to a team - then we'll see how things go!

Happy new year, everyone!